|Posted by [email protected] on November 17, 2013 at 7:15 PM|
LOST IN MY OWN WEBSITE
I don't blog as often as I should. I don't keep this webpage uptodate for that matter... for this reason I find myself lost in my own website. It's kind of like being in a big new home and you just aren't sure which doorway leads to where, or you can't quite remember how to get to, or how to get BACK into.
I wanted to create a new blog section for just basic personal blogging. I didnt have the patience today to figure it out. I'm sure
Aaralyn came to stay with us last night and will most likely be here a few days with us. She loves to be here, and we love to have her here. I hope it will always be that way. I know I myself loved being at my grandma & grandpa's house. Now that I'm a grandma I understand now how much they loved having us there.
One of my abuelitas main job in life was raising kids. She loved it and it showed. Her kid, her grandkids and great grand kids as far as the line went for her were what gave her purpose in l ife. It was a calling that she proudly walked in. A job she gave her all to and a job she was so very good at. Now that I'm a grandma I remember her in a whole new light. As a kid and even older I thought of our relationship as all about me, now I see and know how much was about her.
It makes me feel happy, and excited knowing that I produced joy in her life. She had so very many grandchildren, great-grandchildren and even great-great-grandchildren, yet she had a way of making me feel I was the only one, or if not the only one, then at least her favorite... and I do believe each and everyone one of us that were blessed to grow up close to her felt the same.
I have two children, a boy and a girl. 3 years apart. Jessica the oldest was always a bit more reserved. She was quieter, more shy, easy to teach and I never had very many dramatic episodes with her growing up as far as trouble.
Shawn the youngest was outgoing, talkative, daring and more of a challange to teach. He loved company and loved going to visit people even more. We had many episodes of drama in our life and relationship with him
Two kids so very different personalities and both have my heart for life. There is no way one is more special to me than the other, neither is favored more than the other. When we only had one I could not imagine being able to love another child as much as her... yet our love as parents engulfed our son the same.. a true mystery of the heart.
Now I am a grandmother and truely as everyone told me, it is so different than being a parent... the love is just as great and just as strong, but but a whole different "flavor" of love.
At this time there is no plans in the making anytime soon for any more grandkids, but there is that old familiar lingering thought that peeks around each smile and each kiss and each hug... "How could we ever love another grandchild as much as this one?"
If and when that day comes, I know a brand new flavor of love will be added to the "NEOPOLITAN" rainbow flavor of our hearts
Thank you Lord.. for my mom & step dad, my inlaw parents who made room for me and for all of them allowing me to know and feel what it is like to be the joy in someone's life.. but most of all thank you for my children.. for the blessing of having children and now for the great unbelievable joy of having a grandchild to brighten our life.
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